Alis Volat Propris

Truly, honestly - there are no words for the moment.
I'm sorry, sir, for what I may have pushed upon you.
You were my only relief and I was frantic to hide
Even more from the pain.

Thanks to your silence - I now must face everything.

My best friend, my love, my soul mate is dead.

I woke up one morning, I pulled the blinds up
And he was laying in a snowy field
I called to him, he didn't not look up
I searched for any movement
Told myself not to freak out
While I slowly walked to him
Crawled through the fence

I saw blue eyes. I saw a frozen tongue.
I saw my best friend was dead.

This may sound factual. Because it is.
Because nothing I could every say
Could tell you how that felt
How I feel

I found a person who helped me through
Those first days
But I can't continue to push these things down

I lost my best friend
I lost my soul mate
I lost my constant
The thing that was ALWAYS in my life
Always there for me

Not everyone is always there for me
And that's okay
But he always was
What can I tell you?

Imagine a heart torn into two
That isn't it
Imagine a body set on to fire
That isn't it

Imagine an earth
spinning
hearts breaking
things set on fire
imagine a girl
in a red dress
drinking wine
smoking a cigarette
silently crying
closing her eyes
seeing cloudy eyes
and frozen tongues