I hate you, I hate you
I love you
Fuck, how's this going to work?
I would like to say
It's equally happy and sad
But I've counted the tears that fall
As you count the empires that crumble
You never fail
Never fail
To make me happy
Opps, I mean totally shitty
Happy - what's that?
A far off feeling
Obviously
Everytime we walk that line
It crashes down
These days are killing me
How else can I make you see?
This isn't how it should be
Hell, we're both unhappy
What else can I do?
Look what we're going through
Baby, I'm right on cue
Saying goodbye to you
It shouldn't be like this
And now matter how much we kiss
Or what's promised
Really boy, I do insist
I think it's time for me to go
All these insecurities
Will drive me insane
Make it rain
To wash away
All this doubt
You contain
Love is not a guarantee
There is no certainty
That we're meant to be
We're not even happy
How can I help you see
This is so hard on me
Hear my plea
Forget this perfect key
This isn't lasting
To what extent do I allow
How many mornings of swollen eyes
Blurred visions of your furrowed brow
Everything green slowly dies
Romantic delusions - true love prevails
We all know these tales
But love sometimes fails
The train de-rails
Ships lose their sails
A girl finally exhales
And a masterpiece crumbles
It's not so simple
To imagine a world without
Your eyes - your smell
The stories you tell
You knew me so well
You were the reason I fell
With every word you say
But I wont live this way
I need a new day
Where I'll finally be okay
Sobbing, sobbing every night
I love you baby, but I'm not alright
It's so cliche, isn't that what they say?
But it's happens on cue, every fucking day
You say you're trying --
What the hell are you trying?
To ensure that I'm crying?
So you're not the only one dying?
Pardon my prying
But now we're both lying
I'm not alright when I'm sighing
And god knows what you're trying
If I ask myself if I love you
There's no falter in my yes
But when I wonder if we're okay together
My certainty is much less
And so I find myself, again
Realizing that love is never a straight line
That things never work out how you expect them to
But they always work out how they need to
I am no perfect person
I'm sure many people may believe I don't deserve much
And that maybe I think too highly of myself
But the only important belief is mine
Because I will get what I believe I deserve
And I love the boy
Lord knows I love the boy
But I wont sell myself short
And I wont let this love be confused with the impression
That I have to be with someone who hurts me
I never realized how vulernable I was
Never realized how weak a person could make me
Until I met you
Opened up - you could recieve all the love I try to offer you
But instead you find a way to stab me
In your comments, in your looks, in your actions
Do you realize what I've done, boy?
Do you realize what you've done?
I'm tired of standing by this door.
It's time to either bring my foot back in
Or leave for good.
Jesus, what is going to happen?