Alis Volat Propris

the guy at the grocery store
in the wheelchair with
icy hair
told me what he'd do to me

the man with his wife
pushing the cart
being ignored
while she ran about picking
things out
smiled at me
and said it must be nice
to be in love

the boy in the check-out line
said whoever is my date tonight
is the luckiest guy on earth

i smiled and giggled
my eyes were sparkling today
it's hard for them not to
there is a touch more
magic in the air
love easily rubs off on me

the boy who is too shy to tell me
how he feels
relies on friends to convey
that on its own make me yawn
there is a lot to be said for boldness

i wonder if they would find it strange
should i sit outside the restaurant windows
with a huge smile on my face as people
in love congregate and share
it's beautiful and sad
it is more then a day

three...no...four years ago
to this day
i was getting ready to drink myself
into a poisoned stupor and puke blood
i am not that same girl
and who would have known
that after feeling the extreme pains
of love
i am all the happier to see it alive
i know it will come to me

it's not enough that you're interested
it's not enough that you stand in front of me
offering me worlds
i have learned to not settle
now that i know what can be
i would rather be alone

i am alone and happy
i am battling off ghosts and feelings
sometimes giving in and letting them
take me over
because, frankly, it's fun to pretend
maybe today
maybe today
is my day
maybe maybe maybe