I don’t hate you
I want to see you
I want you to hold me
I want you to tell me it’s a lie
I want you to tell me you have always cared
I want you to tell me
And
Convince me
And
Let me know
That I’m beautiful
And that it was terrible
And that you love me even though
We barely know each other
And that it’s not true
And that she was ugly
Or a terrible kisser
Or didn’t know how to snuggle
Or lord
Just tell me something
Hold
Me
Tell
Me
It’s
Alright
Tell
Me
I
Can
Breathe
Again
Tell
Me
Something
You’re quiet
Stop
Struggling
Be strong
Because
I
Can’t
Anymore
I can’t
I held his hand
And you were sad
And I told you it didn’t mean anything
I’ve held lots of hands
Lots of hands
And it didn’t mean anything
Now you’ve kissed her
And held her
You didn’t want me to be
That girl
But now
You’re that guy
And it wasn’t even a random girl
It was my best friend
My BEST FRIEND
Best friend
Best friend
Best friend
I say that over and over
And what does it hold?
You hurt me
I’ll say it
You hurt me
I was falling for you
And your beautiful hair
And beautiful smile
And that lovely nose
And that rock you got for me
Lord that rock pushed me over
And the way you kissed
And the way you felt
And the way you smelt
And lord I was falling for you
You don’t even realize how
Special that is
How rare that is
You don’t even realize
How I felt for you
And now what?
What am I supposed to do with this?
What am I supposed to do?!
It was that stupid rock
That stupid rock
That stupid redish/purpleish rock
You found it
Saw it
Thought of me
You thought of me
And picked it up
And you still have it
To give to me
God I’m such a fool
Such a fool
To expect you
To wait for my lips
To expect you
To wait for me
To come to your side
To hold you close
To finally keep you warm
Such a fool
Of course she’s lovely
She is my best friend
She’s loving and wonderful
And I can’t believe it