Alis Volat Propris

He dies

So you stare at the sky
You watch the clouds move
The sun set
And then rise
There’s the moon
And sometimes a bird
But mostly there’s pain

So you cry
You cry with a throbbing head
Walk around with swollen eyes
Tears keep rolling
You laugh too
You laugh hysterically
Quite often, actually
But there’s still pain

So you make new friends
You smile
Sometimes it’s real
Sometimes it’s not
You see an object
Eyes glaze over
You remember
But mainly there’s pain

You fuck and dance
You drink too much
You starve yourself
And eat like it’ll bring him back
You want to take a knife
And drag it down your front
Finally release the pressure
Maybe it’ll leave
Maybe you’ll be released
But there’s only pain

And you live, you live, you live
Like a fucking fire cracker
There’s still pain

It propels you into the sky